After watching Season 2 of "Dawson's Creek"...

Yes I do have a season of Dawson's Creek and of course it had to be the season when Dawson and Joey had their first kiss. I spent this weekend watching the season and, in a way, it helped me deal with my breakup. Of course I was yelling at my tv when Dawson decides to give Joey time to figure out what she needs instead of fighting for her (which I've been saying this whole time about Guillermo! I twittered and Myspaced it at that point!) but after watching how life became so much easier for them I started thinking about my life.

Sure I could spend every waking moment like Bella and crying for every little thing that reminds me of Guillermo and me, but doing all that won't make things better between us. He made his choice and (possibly) heartbreaking for him as it (might) have been, he gave me my space and time to figure out my feelings. I made my choice by sending him that email asking for time away so now I have to deal with it. Would I love to see him again? Of course! Would I love for things to be the same? OF COURSE! Truth is, things won't be the same for us if we do get back together and, unlike Joey and Dawson who were able to be friends after the fact, we can't go back to just being friends.

Like what Carilly said, it could be true later on we could get back together or I might meet someone with more common interests. My mom said the exact same thing when I told her about the official breakup. Of course she also said I spent money on a present that is now floating in the trunk but there are other people that like Nemo. Maybe I'll mail it to Katie and attach a note "This was for my ex boyfriend but since we are not together anymore you can have it." LOL.

I am feeling better now and I wonder if that's a good thing. It's been over a month and a half since the first breakup (next week would be 2 months) and I don't know if I should still be grieving. I think I reached my crying limit last month because when I feel like crying, I can't cry. I think hearing Guillermo (actually reading his text) put the stake in the vampire's heart (I am listening to the new BSB song "Straight through my heart" and it's a vampire video) and is helping me to move on. I think I have officially passed the breakup depression mood and now I can really go back to life pre-Guillermo.

ps: I have FINALLY found inspiration for writing my graduate essay.