Since July when I met the love of my life, everything couldn't be perfect. For once in my life (okay, maybe since I started realizing I needed a love life...probably in 2006 or after my grandma died in 2005. I don't know when exactly I felt like that.), I really felt love. I started to feel more like a girlfriend...not like the girl that is "on call" or only when Guillermo couldn't find anyone else to hang out with.
I've been treated so well with Ade for the past 4 months and even when I was sick and tried to break up with him (yes, twice in a weekend!), Ade never considered it. He stayed by me while I was sick, checking on me every day. That's truly someone that's in love with you and I found that guy. Everyone loves Ade and his family adores me too. I can really see myself spending the rest of my life with Ade, which we always talk about since Day 1.
It's weird because with Guillermo, I imagined him busting into the ceremony to stop me from marrying the guy and confessing his love to me. Then I would think about it and end up leaving with Guillermo into the sunset or getting married. Not once did I have any dreams about Guillermo proposing to me, only giving me a promise ring. With Ade, however, I can really see everything: from the moment he proposes (which will be at Disneyland of course and I have some ideas where he will do it) to living together with our children. The Guillermo dream came in around the 2nd month, but instead of me leaving with him I tell Guillermo 'no' and continued the ceremony.
Sometimes this girlfriend stuff can be tough too. There are times Ade will upset me and I don't know what to do. In the beginning I wouldn't talk to him for days, but it is hard when we only talk via text. I don't think I expect a lot, and maybe I still take things personally, but I guess at the end I want to be the perfect girlfriend to Ade. Maybe Guillermo messed me up or something, but I just don't want Ade to regret being with me.
Hopefully the next 4 months will be much different, on my part, and we'll still be as happy as when we met :)
