A lot has happened since the last time I posted on this thing but at least it will make for a better (and longer!) blog. LOL.
I. Guillermo:
Haven't talked to him in months (which "normal" people would consider to be a good thing). Yes I have missed talking to him and on several occassions wanted to text him, but surprisingly I have good will power. I think this is finally it between us. Last year, around this time, I was torn with breaking up with him because of his comments and thought I would never get over him. Now, I can go on without Guillermo and I'm starting to be happy again. I know Mike (aka: my BSB Ace friend) had posed the question "can you live without him?" when I was ranting to him about Guillermo and at the time I thought "no of course not." Now that I think about it, I am living without Guillermo in my life and I'm fine. Do I wish I can share some stuff with Guillermo? Yes, but until he realizes he can't have things go both ways (be friends AND have an intimate relationship), I'm not talking to him. Plus it doesn't seem like it bothers him because he has a new "best friend" girl in his life. Yes, I have been replaced and it bothers me, but I'm not budging. Maybe this Vegas trip will be more interesting...hmm...
II. The other family drama
Apparently this drama (over a phone mind you!) has now become MY FAULT. I told Robert (mind you, I texted him back in April) about the possibility of his phone being lost and I would pay him back if it was. He never responded back to me and this whole issue continued on until 2 months ago when my aunts "decided" to pay my mom and I a visit. I was very weary of this sudden visit because the week before I called my dad. My grandpa (who I haven't seen in years because of my family) came down to visit and asked about me. Then I get a frantic call from my grandpa and when I called him back, my grandpa was very upset and kept insisting if I was ok. This pissed me off because I didn't know what my aunts had told him and I called my dad, upset of course, to find out what they said about me. My dad calls back, assuring me no one told my grandpa anything about me, but I was still upset over this whole thing. Then my mom text my dad and told him to do something about this situation (against my knowledge of course) and sure enough he did. Hence, the visit and pie. (LOL).
So it was going well until my aunt started with her "well the main reason we're here is to talk about what's going on." There I go with forcefully putting my fork down and waiting to hear it. Of course it turned into "well you know, putting stuff on facebook is not right" and "we were very concern about you from what we heard" and (this is my favorite) "I did not want to bother with you so I didn't invite you to my birthday dinner". Oh how much I wanted to tell them off at that moment, but for the sake of my mom (and the neighbor), I kept my mouth shut, looked down, rolled my eyes, and just took it like a girl. Don't you love how family can turn something around and make you look like the bad guy? Oh but they couldn't stop praising my crack-hore of a half cousin. Yes I can truly say that because that's what she is. She shacked up with 2 guys, taking drugs and the family didn't like that. Then she cleans up her act, starts coming around more, actually dates the guy and the family treats her like the golden child. Do I have to do that to get some recognition from that family?
What I learned from this "intervention" of sorts? I'm a bother to the family, I have to be a crack-hore like the "cousin", and this whole thing is my fault and I need to apologize to Robert. Even though I already admitted my fault and took responsibility for losing the phone, I need to apologize to him for not talking to him. Am I missing something here?
I hope December will be a much better month for me (free of Guillermo, the other family and other stuff) and 2011 will be a much better year (no Bella in the woods, no Guillermo, no other family).
