It wasn't bad enough I crossed the line and took Guillermo back, but now I'm so over the line I can't see the side of reasoning. LOL. (Ok no more Emily Griffin/Wickman novels LOL). I realized this weekend it's tough being a girlfriend, especially an unofficial one. I made a promise that I would not make the same mistakes I made the first time around with him, but damn Guillermo! He must've known about my promise because he's pulling every trick in the book to piss me off.
Saturday he goes out to a baseball game and doesn't invite me. Granted, I had plans with the family (we drove to Simi Valley to the Reagan Museum. I LOVED it!) but a "hey, I'm going to the game at 5pm you wanna come?" or something like that. If he would have texted me, I would have no reason to be upset. BUT HE DIDN'T! I was so upset but instead of arguing with him (which the old Jess would have definitely done!), I quietly put my phone down and started reading my book, thinking of ways to get back at Guillermo. I even thought of ways to find a Voturi family that could take him down too (YES I was pissed!).
Sunday was worst because all day, I did not hear from him. I made it a point (since apparently the only reason Guillermo complained about me deleting him from my Facebook was to check up on me) to mention on my statuses "I'M BORED SO I'M READING" . Did he call or text me to see if I wanted to go and do something? NO!! Oh, but the only, ONLY FREAKING text from him was a reply to my last status of the day.
Status: "NEIGHBORS ARE KILLING ME WITH GARLIC" or something like that but it was with garlic.
HIM: "REMIND ME TO GET YOU GARLIC FRIES!"
OMFG!! I wanted to call Guillermo up and let him have it! He could open up his laptop and reply back to a status but he can't freakin' pick up his phone and text me a message or (dare I say it!) call me! I don't know if this is a constant problem for girlfriends, I could be nitpicking, or both but this really bothered me. I know things changed between Guillermo and me, but I guess I was hoping for us to be closer after getting back together.
Bestie and me referred to Guillermo as "My Baby #3" but now he's been downgraded to "Marcus", the insensitive, uncaring guy from "Something Borrowed".
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Sweet Nibblets! I did it again!!
So I guess this means Guillermo and me are back to "unofficial status" again.
Difference is: I'm not going to push for "official" status like last time.
Difference is: I'm not going to push for "official" status like last time.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Here we go again!
Never rely on mobile email because apparently my very good and deep post didn't go through! Anyway, it's almost been a week since Guillermo and me went out after 7 months and I promised myself (and my bestie and my sanity) I wouldn't read into this. What am I doing? Reading into the situation like always.
I always said all I wanted was my best friend, my WALL-E abuser Guillermo back. No strings attached, no hidden messages, no unofficial boyfriend Guillermo..NOTHING! Now I am wishing he would do something like that again. At least kiss me again! Yes I know if that happened, everything that we are trying to work for will probably be messed up again. I'm definitely like Bella when Edward came back at the end of "NEW MOON" because I needed Guillermo. It was as though a missing piece of me came back on Monday when I saw him and it reminded me of our first date.
When I was very sick, I would pray (yes contrary to my family and friends's beliefs, I DO pray!) to see Guillermo one last time and tell him everything, including how I feel. Maybe Monday was my chance to see him and tell him, but of course I didn't say anything. I hope I do get to see him again because I need him.
I always said all I wanted was my best friend, my WALL-E abuser Guillermo back. No strings attached, no hidden messages, no unofficial boyfriend Guillermo..NOTHING! Now I am wishing he would do something like that again. At least kiss me again! Yes I know if that happened, everything that we are trying to work for will probably be messed up again. I'm definitely like Bella when Edward came back at the end of "NEW MOON" because I needed Guillermo. It was as though a missing piece of me came back on Monday when I saw him and it reminded me of our first date.
When I was very sick, I would pray (yes contrary to my family and friends's beliefs, I DO pray!) to see Guillermo one last time and tell him everything, including how I feel. Maybe Monday was my chance to see him and tell him, but of course I didn't say anything. I hope I do get to see him again because I need him.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Star wishing isn't a crazy thing after all!
Yes I did do that on 4th of July eve (why am I making every holiday into "eve" and "day"?) and thought I was going to break under the pressure of not talking to Guillermo (and I was still pissed at him for forgetting our anniversary AND not inviting me out to the Dodger game and other stuff). Well, as Carilly tried to warn me, I should have hidden my phone on 4th of July. Reason: mixing alcohol with the phone is a bad combo, especially when you have the number to your "ex" on the phone still. YES yours truly drank wine coolers to her heart's delight (and against my aunt's constant complaint) and I text Guillermo! It wasn't just for him though, it was to ALL my friends! Even the ones I don't talk to anymore. Worst part: I even put "Better send this out before I start drinking again! LOL" Did he reply? Of course with a generic "thanks you too!" but I knew the next day I would get some sort of comment about my drinking. LOL
Sure enough, yesterday I get a Facebook comment from Guillermo about Sunday. Not really thinking since I had a headache and it was already after 12pm (LOL), I replied back to the comment. While I was getting dressed, the phone rang and it was him. Immediate thought: CALL HIM! Of course I didn't because I thought it was a mistake so I sent him a text instead. He text me back and asked if I wanted to go to a baseball game with him. At first I was very hesitate. Reason: the last 2 times we planned on going out, Guillermo pulls at the end that he didn't feel good after all. Yes I should be sensitive but after the 2nd time and then hearing he went out with another friend, I knew he was just avoiding me. So, since I had to go out anyway, I said yes and waited for the infamous "oh wait, I have a headache" excuse. Instead I got "yay. so I'll be there in 30 minutes". Sweet Nibblets! Guillermo ACTUALLY said yes!
It was like nothing ever happened between us, because as soon as I got in the car it was same ol' Guillermo: teasing and making fun of me. It was a LONG drive out to Lancaster but it was good to just be out again and with him too :). Yes I had hope something else would have happened but at the end I was just glad to have my friend back, the same one that I met 2 years ago at Pinks (aka my WALL-E Abuser).
So instead of jinxing everything, I have decided I'm not telling anyone (except my bestie of course!) and not posting it on Facebook anymore. I want things to work out on its own and without people telling me what I should and shouldn't do. I think that was part of why I did what I did. For right now, I want to enjoy things with Guillermo before I tell people I'm back with him....as my best guy friend of course.
Sure enough, yesterday I get a Facebook comment from Guillermo about Sunday. Not really thinking since I had a headache and it was already after 12pm (LOL), I replied back to the comment. While I was getting dressed, the phone rang and it was him. Immediate thought: CALL HIM! Of course I didn't because I thought it was a mistake so I sent him a text instead. He text me back and asked if I wanted to go to a baseball game with him. At first I was very hesitate. Reason: the last 2 times we planned on going out, Guillermo pulls at the end that he didn't feel good after all. Yes I should be sensitive but after the 2nd time and then hearing he went out with another friend, I knew he was just avoiding me. So, since I had to go out anyway, I said yes and waited for the infamous "oh wait, I have a headache" excuse. Instead I got "yay. so I'll be there in 30 minutes". Sweet Nibblets! Guillermo ACTUALLY said yes!
It was like nothing ever happened between us, because as soon as I got in the car it was same ol' Guillermo: teasing and making fun of me. It was a LONG drive out to Lancaster but it was good to just be out again and with him too :). Yes I had hope something else would have happened but at the end I was just glad to have my friend back, the same one that I met 2 years ago at Pinks (aka my WALL-E Abuser).
So instead of jinxing everything, I have decided I'm not telling anyone (except my bestie of course!) and not posting it on Facebook anymore. I want things to work out on its own and without people telling me what I should and shouldn't do. I think that was part of why I did what I did. For right now, I want to enjoy things with Guillermo before I tell people I'm back with him....as my best guy friend of course.
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