Yes I did do that on 4th of July eve (why am I making every holiday into "eve" and "day"?) and thought I was going to break under the pressure of not talking to Guillermo (and I was still pissed at him for forgetting our anniversary AND not inviting me out to the Dodger game and other stuff). Well, as Carilly tried to warn me, I should have hidden my phone on 4th of July. Reason: mixing alcohol with the phone is a bad combo, especially when you have the number to your "ex" on the phone still. YES yours truly drank wine coolers to her heart's delight (and against my aunt's constant complaint) and I text Guillermo! It wasn't just for him though, it was to ALL my friends! Even the ones I don't talk to anymore. Worst part: I even put "Better send this out before I start drinking again! LOL" Did he reply? Of course with a generic "thanks you too!" but I knew the next day I would get some sort of comment about my drinking. LOL
Sure enough, yesterday I get a Facebook comment from Guillermo about Sunday. Not really thinking since I had a headache and it was already after 12pm (LOL), I replied back to the comment. While I was getting dressed, the phone rang and it was him. Immediate thought: CALL HIM! Of course I didn't because I thought it was a mistake so I sent him a text instead. He text me back and asked if I wanted to go to a baseball game with him. At first I was very hesitate. Reason: the last 2 times we planned on going out, Guillermo pulls at the end that he didn't feel good after all. Yes I should be sensitive but after the 2nd time and then hearing he went out with another friend, I knew he was just avoiding me. So, since I had to go out anyway, I said yes and waited for the infamous "oh wait, I have a headache" excuse. Instead I got "yay. so I'll be there in 30 minutes". Sweet Nibblets! Guillermo ACTUALLY said yes!
It was like nothing ever happened between us, because as soon as I got in the car it was same ol' Guillermo: teasing and making fun of me. It was a LONG drive out to Lancaster but it was good to just be out again and with him too :). Yes I had hope something else would have happened but at the end I was just glad to have my friend back, the same one that I met 2 years ago at Pinks (aka my WALL-E Abuser).
So instead of jinxing everything, I have decided I'm not telling anyone (except my bestie of course!) and not posting it on Facebook anymore. I want things to work out on its own and without people telling me what I should and shouldn't do. I think that was part of why I did what I did. For right now, I want to enjoy things with Guillermo before I tell people I'm back with him....as my best guy friend of course.
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