It's been a week since I sent Guillermo that email and I have come to realize that he does love me (in a way). I said I didn't want to see him anymore and he is giving that to me. I haven't heard from him since I sent the email and no amount of tears or Bella huddling will change what I did. I sometimes regret breaking up with Guillermo, but like Carilly said, I had to do it.
I started cleaning out my phone messages and I found this text (my title) that he sent me right when he was boarding the plane to Denver back in August. That week was such a great memory for me, mostly because Guillermo really showed me what it could be like if we were a couple. Then I started thinking about other times we hung out and I start missing him more. It's like I have moments when I'm fine, then suddenly something happens (either a song or a ticket, etc) and I start missing him like crazy. Yes other times I've done the same thing and gotten over it, but this time it's real and I know I won't ever see Guillermo again.
At this moment, I would give anything to see Guillermo again. I miss his smile, his constant teasing me, basically everything about him.
In other news...(since I did promise not to just write about Guillermo)
~Sunday: Disneyland
~Saturday: playoff game @ 730pm. I'll be stalking Will Smith, Joe Montana and Wayne Gretzksy at Cathedral (their sons are playing againt Will's team)
~next Saturday: my friend (and first crush) from elementary school invited me to hear his band play. Maybe he can be my Jacob to take my mind off of Guillermo but I'm not going to hold my breath. Right now, I am not emotionally ready for any new guy to be in my life.
:) If I remember correctly, in the series, things go A LOT better for Bella...SO that means you too!
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