So I just found out Guillermo went out with another girl yesterday. Jealous? I think I am because finding that old LA Zoo was OUR thing and he goes and takes this girl (friend or another G Gurl) with him. Yes I unofficially broke up with Guillermo but officially... I guess I'm hoping for a holiday miracle -again.
Thinking about it, yes I am jealous. I hate that I feel like this because a guy goes out with another girl. Yes I overreacted last time Guillermo went out with another girl friend and YES I freaked out (just a tad because I was driving) when he said he kissed her (supposedly on the cheek but it's Guillermo.) but I was able to just relax and forget about it. Plus the fact I blurted out that I still had feelings for him helped too. Now, I'm just overly upset and hurt that he took this girl and didn't bother to call me instead. Who knows what they did (if any but I'll say it again, it's Guillermo) and how close they are (if they are just friends or friends with benefits or what).
The fact is, no matter how much I try to fight it or how much crazy stuff I do (or in the process of doing--trust me, I'm like Bella in "New Moon" doing all those crazy stuff to hear Edward's voice), Guillermo will always be that one guy for me. Sadly, I will always love him because he was my first real love (crazy for me to say that, but compared to Juan and Clint and Mike/Gus, Guillermo really is my first everything.).
(I thought posting via SMS on my phone would work but I don't like how it comes out. Instead, I will do simple, small posts and when I get home, will copy and paste into a "normal" 1-post).
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