Sassy vs Tobey, round 1

It has been about a month since I got Sassy (my adorable yet bad kitten that my bestie Carilly gave me) and because she likes to hide under the sofas, the bed, the dresser (yes she's gotten in the drawers now) and any place she can get into I haven't had the chance to introduced her to Tobey (my equally adorable but bad dog).  The first time he came over the house, Tobey went crazy.  He was crying while sniffing Sassy out from under the sofa (which was the reason she got out of the house and was outside for a couple of days.) The second time I brought him over, Tobey sniffed around and just forgot about her.  Maybe he thought I got rid of the kitty.  Then last week Tobey came and started living with us.  We were worried Tobey would go back and start hunting down Sassy but since he had to move to a new house, Tobey mostly was sleeping and being depressed.  I stayed home with him for a couple of days, just to watch him and make sure he didn't see her, and nothing.  I even left Tobey home alone for a few hours on Sunday and nothing happened.  I began to think the pairing would work.

Then Sassy started to get ideas and would causally pop out from under my mom's bed, like taunting Tobey to come and get her.  My mom and I would quickly close the door, move towards her (when Sassy sees someone take a step, she runs.), or something so Tobey wouldn't see her.  Maybe she wanted Tobey to see her because he tends to eat her food. Sassy started acting braver and then today of all days (I was going back to work) she made her move.  I saw her coming towards my room and Tobey was, of course, sleeping on my bed.  She would peek over to my room and quickly duck back to my mom's room.  When I would see her I would move towards her and of course run.  I guess I turned around too quickly because as soon as I turned my back to get my stuff, Sassy peeked over and ran to the living room.  Tobey jumped down and ran after her, barking at her.  I run (okay, hobbled) over to the kitchen and poor Tobey was wimpering while sniffing around the kitchen and sofa.  I felt so bad, but I had to leave so I quickly petted Tobey on the head and tried to calm him down.  When I was closing the door, Tobey was just looking at me with sad eyes.  I just hoped Sassy doesn't do anything because I may be coming home to an even more messy house later. 

This is how it might play out

So my work computer didn't even want me to post it because it shut off on me (and all my work was lost so I have to get back to work. LOL).  Anyway, yesterday I started to write this and this scene is kinda how I think our last outing will be.  Sad, yes I know but in reality this is mostly how it will turn out. I left it open because maybe Guillermo will surprise me and actually do something but I know him well enough that he won't.

Lizzy looks at Carlos, both of them red eyed from crying. This wasn't supposed to end up like this, she thought. "What Carlos? Are you just gonna give up and walk away? What happened to the Carlos I knew? The one I fell in love with? Where is he?" She felt the tears coming down her cheeks but she didn't care anymore.


Carlos just stood there, looking at Lizzy.  All he wanted to do was grab Lizzy, hug her and tell her the truth. Something inside him, however, was holding him back from doing that and it was killing him. "Lizzy...I'm...I'm sorry." was all he could get out before he started to cry.


Lizzy stopped and realized, for the first time in their 1 year and 11 month relationship, this was truly over.  She was going to turn around and walk away, but decided to finish this off for good. Sighing, Lizzy wiped her eyes and looked at Carlos.


"Carlos, I'm sorry for this.  If I hadn't asked for that break we would be fine right now. Instead I got angry after your comment about cheating on me if we hooked up. In this relationship, that's the only thing I regret doing. I will always love you Carlos because you were my 1st everything. Yes we had our moments but mostly we always found our way back to each other. I have such great memories of us, whether it was at the beach or just driving around. You supported me and just being there when no one else was. I'm gonna miss that because after tonight I have to face the fact you won't be around anymore."

Lizzy starts to cry and leans over and kisses Carlos one more time, reminding her of their first kiss a year ago.  Carlos didn't say anything when Lizzy stood and turned around.  As she walked away, Lizzy wished and even prayed that Carlos would stop her from leaving but nothing happened.

Again I stayed home because I feel miserable and yet again I'm out doing other things than resting. Grr... I had a Bella moment yesterday at Matty's school. There was a dad picking up his daughter and for the next 5 minutes I thought it was Guillermo. Then I put on Twitter "Dear Alice. I saw him today." like from New Moon. I forgot the rest but still it was weird.

Here's what I know

About 3 things I know....
1. Guillermo Flores is a JERK
2. A part of him, and I don't know how much of him, is in love with me.
3. I am unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him....still

Dang! Really has been a while!

Supposedly I'm working on entering and getting history reports on these correspondences that I'm now in charge of, but instead I'm blogging. LOL.


First off, I'm actually doing better with my leg. Yes I'm a tad limping but lately I can pull off the walking normally again. It's probably been a month since the new doctor put me back on the medication and FINALLY it's starting to work. I hope this means I can pull off the old "get up and dress in 5 minutes" routine again. Of course I have the occassional pain when I forget and overwork it, but majority of the time I can fake it. Yay! I'm not House anymore. Maybe in some strange way, watching Edge (who messed up his Achilles' Heel and had surgery but still limps a little) fight and defeat Chris Jericho on EXTREME RULES helped? lol

So Guillermo and me have been trying to actually go out again since the end of last month but every time something happens and we don't go. Either my leg's acting up or he's working. I'm hoping it will be different on Friday. Why Friday? The BERLIN concert at Hollywood Park! He mentioned he wanted to go and I started looking into the concert (aka: finding out if it was the real band). Then I posted that I was going to the concert too. I'm so excited, since it will be the first actual concert I am going to, but now I'm starting to have second thoughts about it.

First, what if Guillermo is not even going after all.
Second, what if he goes but doesn't take me.

Since Guillermo first started asking to go out, I started to panic. Part of me wanted to definitely go out, since I haven't gone out since December (pretty much after I broke up with him and when I got sick). The other part of me was afraid to go out because I didn't want Guillermo to see how bad I was. Yes I did ask him one night if he would treat me differently and he said "of course not" but he's a guy. Now that I'm ready to go and face him, I'm worried if I waited too long. I know we had agreed to be friends but could I be especially if I see him with someone else? Guillermo's done a lot of going out while I was sick so it could happen and I would be happy for him, but this is the guy I love. Could I really be the good friend and let him go? That is why now I'm debating about the concert. Let's see what happens.

I'm finally getting used to the new house and it's been about 3 weeks since my mom and I moved. I have my posters up so it's beginning to feel like 'my home.' I've never felt like that since we moved from my grandma's house many years ago and this house kinda reminds me of her house. Maybe that's why I'm starting to feel a bit comfortable.

Oh and finally my mom conceded and let me get a KITTY!! YAY!

She's a tiny, tiny black and white kitty named Sassy because she got out and for the entire weekend we couldn't find her. Monday we were able to find her and coax her back inside (of course after getting bitten by her while feeding her.) Now Sassy's back to hiding under the couches but at least I know she's inside.

Home from work yet again

Yes and I have a feeling this could be a weekly event.  Ehh...

So after waking up from a long nap due to taking pain killers for the leg (oh and my jaw's hurting like crazy and my cheek is actually swollen---I'm a freak now! *sad face*) I remembered that the new Eclipse trailer came out this morning.  There I go to check it out and OMG this will probably be the best movie in the series (granted there are only 2 made and 1 more to go, actually Breaking Dawn will probably be split into 2 parts like Harry Potter).  The one part that everyone's talking about (and wishes their men would say to them, myself included and actually had tears in my eyes thinking about it) is Jacob's famous line "I'm going to fight for you until your heart stops beating"

Of course we all know how the book ends but it's still exciting to see who Bella will choose.  As if the director will make a drastic change in the movie, upsetting the whole Twilight community.  As for me, I'm still a Team Jacob fan.  Trying to make Guillermo into my own Edward kinda made this Edward not so appealing anymore.  For a while, I hated Jacob but after 5 minutes I realized he's the most realistic guy in the series.

Countdown to Ecplise on June 30th has now started. Now I have to go back and reread the book before June.

Of course the day I come back to work, there's no supervision......

AND NO WORK FOR ME!!! YIKES!!

So, I'll just blog and make it seem like I'm working on billing stuff so the other supervisors (or the lead that for some odd reason does not like me since I started working here) won't throw me to the non-Jacob pack wolves (aka: the PHONES).

What I did since the last time I posted? Hmm....
1. Off work again because my leg swelled up again but not as bad like last time.
2. Couldn't go to Disneyland on Sunday because of the leg situation but had fun at home
3. Another Cinderella Story is still my favorite movie but it doesn't make me sad like before.\
4. Downloaded more songs from the soundtrack Another Cinderella Story
5. Suddenly have an urge to dance (crazy, huh? Of course if I tried it now I would end up right back in the hospital. LOL)
6. Realized I do not want to see my dad's family because frankly they get on my nerves and I don't want to be around that right now during my recovery.
7. Still trying to write letters to people but when I start, I never finish it (Sorry Carilly but it's coming!!)
8. Realized that making peace with Angie wasn't a good thing because I haven't heard anything back from her.
9. Decided based on #8 not to make peace with Katie
10. I spend too much time thinking when I'm just laying in bed with my leg elevated and can't fend for myself. LOL

Oh and add another thing on the list of stuff: I haven't had ANY inclination to text or even want to talk to Guillermo since the last text I sent him. I think that's what I needed: closure. I told him how I felt, then told him I never regret the things we did, he wants to still be friends and there you go. Yes maybe it would be nice to have him text me to see how I'm doing (I told him I would be better in a few weeks) but I'm not thinking about it or anything anymore. Maybe if I had done this sooner, like a week before my birthday, I would have been so much better.

OH, RANDOMness! I found cds that I made at the Mount of old songs so I started listening to them in the car this week. I can't believe the stuff I downloaded! I guess it was the Mount coodies or something. LOL. Anyway, I found this song that it could have been my official break up song. Then I looked at the title of the cd: LOVE SONGS to cry over. It got me thinking: Who would I be in love with that I would have LOVE SONGS? I know for certain there was Jimmy but he had too many issues (Plus he was with Angie and that's how the whole drama started between Katie and Angie). Irene had some guy she met online and Rebecca had some 17 year old guy from school and of course Katie had no one so it made me think. Was it somehow a precursor to what would happen now? Interesting enough it made me watch the Matrix at 8:30 in the morning. LOL.