It's been a while again

It’s been a while since I last posted a blog and many things have happened since.

1. I fell in love 

2. I fell back in love

3. I fell out of writing

4. I lost my job

First time, in a long time, I fell in love with the most amazing and caring guy ever.  Any girl would be so lucky to have a guy like him (and I would be hating those girls too) and he choose me..at Disneyland of all places.  I had just restorted to living the single, Guillermo-free life that I had so desperately tried to go back to for the past 4 months. Now I can officially say, and still can’t belive it, that Ade is my boyfriend for over a month now. 

Second, Guillermo comes back into the picture.  At the Mount, I would critize and make fun of those girls that would cry over a guy but as soon as they would come back, the girls would drop everything to go back. I didn’t drop everything (or Ade) to go back to Guillermo, but we did have a long facebook conversation.  I still wish he would admit his feelings to me, but in some strange way this is Guillermo showing how much he loves me: by letting me go and be happy with the one that’s giving me what I want and need.  I still wish he would fight for me though, but I know Guillermo too well and fighting is something he doesn’t do.  I admitted to him before Guillermo left to Denver and hopefully it will make him realize I still care for him: I am truly happy and in love with Ade, but he is not Guillermo because there is that one thing Guillermo has.  Guillermo asked me what that was and, still to this day, I don’t know what that is.  

Yes I thought about it for a couple of days, but I went back to being Ade’s girl and carried on with everything.  

Another thing is my writing. Can you belive this is the longest thing I have written since April? Some reason, since NKOTBSB concert and Disneyland, I have not written in my novel.  What began as a therapy session for me during the Guillermo time became my new obession and I wanted to finish it by my birthday.  However, I cannot find myself to write the novel anymore.  It hit me today: the novel, and much of my stories, have been about Guillermo! This new novel that I worked on for the longest time, was about him and now that I’m with Ade, I can’t find myself writing it anymore.