I have decided to let Guillermo go. Well, unofficially I have (since our relationship is still in the unofficial status). For the 2 years we have been going out, Guillermo always said how he loves Denver and wishes he could go back. He went to school out there so it's understandable why he feels so attached to Denver. The last time we went out, Guillermo was saying how he gets his mind set on doing something for him and then something happens and he puts his life on hold to fix it. It got me thinking: what if one of the reasons he is staying is me? Crazy thinking, yes I know because I don't mean anything to him but I have a small feeling it could be. I remember last year, before he went on his weekend trip back to Colorado, I made a big thing that I was never gonna see him again. Now that I'm older (wiser maybe?), I realized I should have just let him go. I don't want to be the reason Guillermo can't live out his dream and if it ever came down to it, I would give up my happiness for him to be happy.
Of course Guillermo would never ask me that, or even think about it, but I'm already preparing myself for that situation. Maybe that's why it's kinda been easy for me to be apart from him this long. Though I still have my moments of missing (and crying) over him, I've been pretty good about not texting him or anything.
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